HOW THE PALEO DIET SAVED OUR SON

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(NOTE: When my good friend, Beth Rose, who is a writer and reflexologist living and working in Central Minnesota, shared the following story with me, I couldn’t help but think of the trauma I endured a number of years ago when my daughter developed “projectile vomiting.” She was just a baby at the time and her only nourishment was from milk. But as it turned out, she was lactose intolerant and we immediately switched to a soy product. These days she is able to indulge in a bit of whipped cream on our Christmas brandy spice pie, and nibble on cheese and crackers. But she selects carefully and pays the price for overindulgence.

Beth’s story in an important one. It seems that more and more children are developing food allergies, and whether that ties into my favorite rant about the overuse of herbicides and pesticides in Big Ag or validates the fact of the many additives that we subject ourselves to on a daily basis, it is crucial to our children that we arm ourselves with knowledge. Thank you Beth.

                         How The Paleo Diet Saved Our Son

                                        By Beth Rose

     The change in our household food habits began when my eleven-year-old son, Vincent, started having trouble with gas. It wasn’t just ordinary little Poofs! and then it was gone. No, this noxious odor caused people to express their frustration at the dinner table when it happened, or we rolled down the car windows in any kind of weather. We joked that we could offer him to the government as a secret war weapon, but deep inside my husband and I were frustrated that we didn’t know how to help him.

     An adult would find problem gas disconcerting enough, but to an eleven-year-old boy, the embarrassment is overwhelming. In school, he prayed no one would figure out the owner of the smell that wafted over the classroom. He sunk lower in his seat when he rode the bus, hoping no one realized that he was the reason for the, “Oh my God, do you smell that?” Sometimes the students did figure out who had caused the stink, and he was further alienated in a school where he already felt like an outsider.

     Fortunately, a client of mine mentioned that she had found a local homeopathic physician’s assistant who helped her with a variety of health issues. Encouraged by the possibilities, I called and made an appointment.

     The homeopath, Kelly, worked with private clients from her own office. The problem, she explained, had to do with gluten. “We’ll put him on a Paleo diet,” she said. For thirty days, no sugar, corn, white potatoes, or wheat products. Vincent looked at her skeptically. “It’s just for a short time,” she added. “After that, you can add one thing at a time back into your diet and see what agrees with you and what doesn’t.”

     Vincent was the only child I had who loved potatoes, and bread was always on his plate. How on earth could we take away so many of his favorite foods?

     To his credit, Vincent was a trouper. He and I diligently looked at labels in the store, went through the pantry and discussed which food had gluten, plus he sought out various recipes to make his culinary experience on par with the rest of us. We filled out the proper paperwork, and met with the head cook at his school to help her figure out what he could eat for lunch.

     “I feel so bad for him,” the cook confided to me two weeks into the diet. “I try to give him an extra piece of meat, and of course, he has a salad almost every day. But he never complains.”

     “Does he ask for more?” I asked. She shook her head. “Then I would bet he’s fine.”

     That’s not to say that we didn’t make mistakes in this culinary adventure. For example, we forgot to take corn out of his diet the first month. Fortunately, his physical issues began to go away. After two weeks, the two of us got together and assessed how he was doing.

     “I feel better!” he said. My intestines don’t hurt anymore.”

     “And the gas?”

     He shook his head. Nothing more at school.”

     I noticed he hardly ever blew us out of the car or the room anymore either. But the total surprise was that a mild psoriasis around his body had disappeared completely.

     It wasn’t a surprise to Kelly. “When the skin develops psoriasis like that,” she said, “it’s often a sign of some kind of food intolerance.” She was pleased to hear of Vincent’s progress and scheduled a follow-up in six months.

     And what a change in those months! Vincent grew three inches and lost all of his baby fat around the middle of his waist. Family and friends often mentioned how tall and thin he was getting. In fact, he hadn’t lost a pound from the first day of his diet.

     What changed was that we determined what he should not eat. White potatoes made his intestines so sore that he had no trouble eliminating them from his diet. Corn, he discovered, was still fine, as was oatmeal and barley. He could eat pizza one day for a special occasion, but the next several days needed to be gluten free entirely. While the rest of us continued to use our usual food, we added gluten-free products into our pantry such as pastas and bread. We were very pleased to find gluten-free Chex cereal. Since we had always eaten fresh, the rest of our diet didn’t have to change much.

     Now Vincent is a happy and healthy thirteen-year-old. All of us are grateful that his gas in gone, and that he feels better. We hope his story can spark other people to consider how food intolerances might be affecting their lives, and perhaps even how a Paleo diet can help them feel better.

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THE WINTER OF MY DISCONTENT

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In the past I’ve written about “the wonder of wafting flakes, the cushy clumps of white upon the evergreens, the comfort of saying the word, “brrrr” as I peek outside, simultaneously rubbing my hands together as I smell the bouquet of baking ginger cookies.” And I have referenced the Snow Queen, surveying her wintry domain, here on her/my hill, looking out at crystals and icicles. All the Minnesota novelties to a California girl.

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Silly me. It’s our third winter here on Mt. Faith. And it is no longer thrilling, definitely not poetic, absolutely over-the-top ridiculous, are you-kidding-me absurd, what were we thinking, and frankly – I never knew Midgard, our mother Earth could be such a bitch. Sorry.

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It has been weeks with below zero temperatures (read that 40 plus below with the wind chill) and not much hope in sight. As I write these words the blizzard is in full force, the Frost Giants hurling the storm with a vengeance. And I can only ask myself – how did my darling Grammy Marie and Grandma Pauline and Great Grandma Elin survive in this land?

If I am inside with central fuel oil heating, and no need to regularly traverse the frozen slopes to the designated outside “bathroom,” and not dependent on long, arduous ski runs, over a hundred miles away, to Alexandria for basic supplies, then how indeed can I complain and whine?

How did they do it? How ever, these ancestors of ours on the upper plains, did they live in log cabins and holes dug into the ground until they could construct a proper structure? How was it possible to stay warm and sane when all hell broke loose and the Gods reigned havoc upon this land?

I can’t even get down my driveway (actually, not back UP again) and it is making me crazy. My calendar is loaded with appointments – meetings for planning 1 Vegetable/1 Community (beets this year), Lake Region Writers Network task force for conferences, Master Gardener information booth at the mall, Unitarian group facilitators meeting, fiber day potluck, book launch party, garden club program, Someplace Safe benefit tea. And that’s all in the first two weeks of February.

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And no. We’re not contemplating moving back to California. But we have new respect for our fellow Minnesotans who manage to go on with life and laugh about their homeland and say “Uff Da” a lot. It must have been bred-in by the likes of Grammies Marie and Pauline and Elin, and if that’s the case I guess I need to practice dredging up my inner Norwegian.

For one, I’ve made a promise to myself to begin to sort through seed catalogues (note: ONLY those on the Monsanto-Free list!) and plot out the new garden that I pre-prepared last fall, focusing on bee and butterfly friendlies – monarda and asclepias, sunflower and cosmos and goldenrod, Joe Pye weed and salvias.

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And whenever I look out the window, instead of cursing and focusing on the dreaded driveway, I must envision all the promises of the spring to come. Especially the peonies which we separated from the Clara and Hemnes cemeteries and the old home at Hickson, and that represent my personal heritage, thanks to Marie and Pauline and Elin. 

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And last – T.M. must order new snow tires. 

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THE DOCTOR IS IN

I have a theory, for what it’s worth, that there are two emotional scales and we are genetically, intrinsically born to one or the other. I first began pondering this paradigm the day I realized that my good friend who constantly succumbed to bouts of depression, was just wired that way and I was not.

That’s not to say that I am better. Just different. I am fortunate, it’s true, to have been blessed with tons of seratonin from both sides of my family and that means that on one end of my personal scale I am easily tickled by the robin hop-bobbing across my grass, bemused by a clever choice of words, and likely to hum a tune while chattering aloud to the plants in my garden. But given a twist of fate or a frightful life turn of events, as I swing to the other extreme of the scale, I don’t sink into depression. I become anxious, anguished, a mass of mental turbulence.

That’s when my husband usually shouts – “Go to your room!” which refers to my meditation aerie at the top of the stairs. And he’s right, and I do, and I try to achieve, then, a semblance of serenity.

Serenity isn’t an easy state for me, and that’s not to say I have never attained a deeper meditative awareness, a spiritual poise in my lifetime, but I suspect that my friend who suffers from depression can get to that place easier than I can because serenity and depression are both points of stillness. A good quietude on the one hand and a paralysis on the other end. 

The two ends of my emotional scale are all about movement – happy chirpings and murmurings on the one hand, and hand-wringing, floor pacing fear on the other. My hope for myself, is the truth that in movement there can more easily be change. In other words, an object already in movement can be nudged and re-directed on a different trajectory. An object that is static takes much more of a push to redirect.

That’s my wish for my personal attainment of happiness.

That will be two cents please.

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IN ONES OWN HAND

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“A national fight is brewing to keep cursive writing in U.S. classrooms.”

What? I had no idea it was out. But, yes. According to an Associated Press article last week – “When the new Common Core educational standards were crafted, penmanship classes were dropped.”

And now, seven of the states in this country are fighting to restore cursive instruction. Why? For one thing, proponents argue that scholars of the future will lose the ability to interpret historical documents, not to mention old familial correspondence. Can you imagine a child of the future on holiday at the Smithsonian, dumbly staring at the Declaration of Independence as if it were written in Mongolian or Persian? Or stumbling one day upon an ancient chest in the attic of the family homestead which contained letters written home by their great-grandfather who was to soon die at the Battle of the Bulge? And miss the personal significance and not be able to read one word.

It is an important point for teachers and parents to note that recent brain science shows that fluid motion employed when writing script enhances hand-eye coordination and develops motor skills in general. And many educators have come to believe that writing by hand helps students “to slow down their thinking, encouraging deeper and fuller thinking.”

Thanks to the influence and passion of a personal mentor, Dennis Patrick Slattery, I would have to plunk the whole issue into a far greater bag of consequences and implications. In “Riting Myth, Mythic Writing,” and repeatedly at a workshop I attended last year, Dennis suggested that “there exists a deep psychological, even mythic magic in these cursive letters.” He writes of the “ceremonial enactment that allows a more meditative, meandering, spiraling back, down and into the story, to the energy that provides its life force, so to animate its design and discern its shape and focus of interest.” 

At the workshop and in his writings, he also encouraged us to keep a daily journal where “the slow looping and curving of the letters in one’s own hand is essential to slowing and often thereby deepening the quality of expression.”

I have years of old journals sitting upon my bookshelf where I once did just that, scribbling across each page with abandon if not always with something I might today describe as “quality of expression.” I wrote about passion and pitfalls, foibles and folly. I wrote about the mundane and the magnificent, petty concerns and youthful enthusiasms, things of the sea and thoughts of the spirit. And I got used to the sound and the rhythm of words in my head and the swirls on the page.  

Of late, however, I have been primarily writing on the keyboard, letting my fingers rat-dat-a-tat out the words on the screen, hurrying through ideas, scurrying onto the next thought, anxious to post. Or make a point. And I would never, ever, abandon my AOC and my COMPAQ and my HP DESKJET, my modern friends at the desk with my Roget’s Thesaurus to the left and Webster’s New World to the right. But the Common Core and Dennis Patrick Slattery have a point and now set me to wondering about my own depth of thinking and the spiral and the curve, the sweeping back, that might lend my writing “it’s own ritual gradient, its own energy field.”

Consider the instinctual ways in which we use movement and rhythm throughout our lifetime. It begins with the comforting of a fussy baby, the rocking back and forth, or side to side, patting and cooing “There. There.” all the while. It isn’t something learned or taught. We just do it.

When in stress we walk or pace back and forth, as if trying to recapture a state of balance, Or, I do.

Movement plays a major role in so many spiritual disciplines – Sufi Dancing, twirling about with the right hand raised to the sky and the left toward the earth; T’ai Chi, bringing the energy into focus and harmony; and the Garuda practice from Tibetan Buddhism which balances and taps into new life, mirroring the Phoenix rising from the ashes.

Walking the pattern of the Labyrinth has been a tradition throughout the ages, revitalized in modern church settings, and is thought to enhance right brain activity while establishing a meditative state of mind. And in Greek drama there is the inclusion of Strophe and Antistrophe where the chorus chants while moving from east to west, or left to right, and back again. But never back to the exact same place.

When I pull out some of my tattered journals, all sizes and shapes, fanciful and business-like, and dare to reread the entries, I can trace personal  movements – the inside and out, left to right and back again. But never back to the exact same place.

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Only one is fairly new and was purchased with new-found enthusiasm one year ago after the workshop and quickly abandoned. On the front it is titled “Decomposition Book, 100% Post-Consumer-Waste Recycled Pages, Made using Bio-Gas, Processed Chlorine Free, Printed with Soy Ink, Made in the USA.” This says something about its modernity.

On the inside covers are fanciful drawings of the solar system, the life cycle of the soy plant, a map of the Mississippi River, stages of the common garden ant, the Great Sphinx of Giza compared to the Blue Whale and the tallest dinosaur, and a representation of someone trying to peek into the universe and see “what is behind the stars.” It appears to be a nod to stimulating one’s imagination.

At the same time I also purchased a fresh bottle of Parker black ink and unearthed my cherished and lately unused Mont Blanc fountain pen and placed the three items by the chair in my meditation aerie.

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And on the first day of the new journal I wrote – “All Hallows Eve. A good time to start.” And two weeks later, ended the last entry with – “Hope the weather will bring a white Christmas, but not hamper driving to the airport.” Left to right and back again. But never back to the exact same place.

Back to the original question: Will our schools in this digital-heavy age continue to turn out master computer keyboard kids? Or will they reintroduce the old, familiar lined pages and encourage a slow looping and curving of letters about Blue Whales and dinosaurs, life cycles of garden ants and soy plants, and the mythic magic behind the stars? In the classroom and in my meditation aerie. I hope so.
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WRITER’S BLOCK – BUILDING BLOCKS

“Give yourself to the child until you have something on the page. Then let the adult critique.” That’s my new motto, and I painstakingly scrolled the words with my Mont Blanc pen upon pale blue copy paper decorated with a rainbow. I pinned the dictum above my computer in case I might forget the wise words of Judy Wilson, professor of creative writing at Southwest Minnesota State University (SWMS), the founder and editor of The Yellow Medicine Review: A Journal of Indigenous Literature, Art and Thought.

On a recent weekend in Ortonville, Minnesota, she kept forty plus writers rapt, elated and emboldened at the Lakeside Writers Workshop, and I can only imagine the lucky students who enroll in her creative writing classes at SWMS. I’ve been rummaging through my notes, sorting through the gems of advice (and there were many), striving to retain the clarity and momentum of enthusiasm.

But, it is within the above quote that I found my personal touchstone. Writers block must be the singular most debilitating hindrance to the craft. And for me it seems to arise more often, stay longer, strike deeper and do more damage than it did in the beginning of my writing life. No longer can I riff along on the keyboard, content with my cleverness and call it good.

I can see now that previously my inner child tootled on, playing with words, having fun. Now the adult voice chastens, reciting the rules in my head, tsk-tsking that I’m liable to fall and bruise my self-confidence. The more I learn and the more skills I acquire, the greater my fear that I am not measuring up. That thought inevitably leads to a kind of paralysis, and I turn away and busy myself elsewhere. And the next thing I know, weeks have elapsed, and I am numb to my words.

When I was perhaps five, I received a pair of roller skates. The kind with the leather strap that goes around your ankle and side clamps which were tightened with a skate key. No amount of scraped and bloodied knees, head bumps and shoulder twists could deter me from fearlessly flying down our sidewalk, ka-chum ka-chum over the lined pavement. And eventually I reveled in my magnificent (I thought) backward figure eights down the side alley. And even won a free admission pass or two for winning races at the local roller rink.

My other childish passion was writing and starring in neighborhood backyard productions. I penciled the script on lined 8 X 10 paper, giving myself the starring roles, and audaciously sold tickets to all the parents, neighbors and local merchants. It didn’t occur to me that my enactment of “Dance Hall Girls of the West,” chosen specifically because I had recently received a Dale Evans cap gun, or what I believed to be a great knock-off of Betty Grable singing “It’s Only a Paper Moon,” was less than professional and not worthy of twenty-five cents. I never made it to the Oscars, but I did later star in a high school play and received applause upon my exit.

Upon reflection, and thanks to Dr. Judy, I’ve decided to let Little Diane out to play. Big Diane and my writer’s group can pick up the pieces.

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THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

“Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth

Than took the other …”

So begins the poem by Robert Frost. It was the basis of a talk given recently by Bob Worner at the Underwood Unitarian Church, a mind-bending presentation, and I can’t get the topic out of my head ever since.

Last night when I couldn’t sleep, instead of counting sheep I enumerated all the places I have lived in my lifetime. They totaled thirty-five. Thirty five! That would mean that if I proportioned them out, I would have moved every 2.14 years. That seems almost irresponsible. Or frivolous. Or perhaps, just adventurous?

Looking back, some of the paths seem bold and thrilling. Others, just practical necessities. Nothing more. But some still hold a yearning for what “might have been.” And now I hear my husband’s voice, chiding me for focusing on the past, exhorting me to (thank you Ram Dass) “be here now,” and he’s right of course but one can only wonder . . .

The first time I recall diverging was because of my best friend Margot. Throughout high school we had been together in theatrical productions, auditioned for creative writing club together (no small feat), shared friends and passions and felt, with all the braggadocio of youth, that we were destined for lives of achievement. We both applied and were accepted at UCLA and planned to go off to college together in the fall. But in the summer Margot went away to participate in a theatre workshop at a small private school and secured a scholarship there and changed her higher education plans.

I am ashamed to admit it, but I was crushed. And even more, that I didn’t have the courage, the gumption, the self-sufficiency to continue on by myself. And so I made up the excuse that it would be helpful if I took off a year and worked to save up money for my education, just one year, and then I would continue on into that big world of higher learning and career and adventure. I would do it later, I told myself. 

Turn, turn, turn. A pivotal turning point. I imagine a tree with limbs in every direction, smaller branches extending out, and I choose one limb which leads to a branch and that branches off again, and now I’m so far from the trunk that I don’t see my way back. I have careened off into a direction I never suspected, into a labyrinth of divergent turnings.

That was the first time I took the other path.

In a parallel universe, who was the other Diane? The one who most likely chose the conservative route, getting a B.A. in education with a minor in English and ended up teaching literature and creative writing at the local high school before marrying the geeky but handsome history teacher, buying a house in their home town, raising a family who then provided grandchildren who all gathered on holidays, amen. That Diane would have dabbled a bit in little theater, worked for local political causes, and kept a journal, writing every day about her secret dreams of living abroad and becoming best friends with Anais Nin, of penning the next small press sensation, of playing a mime in big city street dramas, and marching through Selma, Alabama arm in arm with Martin Luther King.

That is not to say that parallel Diane did any of that. But she went to Mexico City and lived for a year, helping to publish a small journal about bullfighting, worked actively as a member of SNCC and SDS in the civil rights days, took college classes in literature with an emphasis on folklore and mythology, lived in Big Sur, California in the 70’s, helped create and run three restaurants, focused on meditation and esoteric studies, moved like a gypsy up and down the west coast, learning to be a Master Gardener while her husband designed and built houses. Oh, that’s me.

And most importantly, along the way had two magnificent children and married her best friend.

And yet—

“I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I —

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.”

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WAITING AND WATCHING

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 Cosmo had a stroke last week.

I look at these shocking words on the page and realize that I have been repeating this phrase over and over in my head ever since. I know he is nineteen and yes, he’s had a good life (isn’t that what they say to lighten the blow) and it was inevitable wasn’t it? Had to be something. Cancer or thrombosis or kidney failure.  

I can imagine cards drawn from a pile of death sentences? Roll the dice. One, two, three, four, five, six – “Oh! Landed on Reading Railroad.” Beware of falling under the tracks. “Do not pass GO!” – you have serious Alzheimers and don’t have a clue. 

 We have loved and lived with fabulous cats. Bela, a Tonkinese whose demise under the wheels of a car came way too soon, but in a short lifetime epitomized Alpha Pizzazz. Rammy, a long-ish haired Siamese, who brought all the spoils of his night hunting to the door of our cabin in Big Sur, carefully laying out the feet and tails in a line. Ram’s happy “burrrupp,” trilling upward to a focus on the final “p,” still elicits laughter and tears. He shared the house, at that time, with Neferkitty, a sweet black Burmese who had been brought to submission and rescued from children who liked to play doll dress-up. With her.

Then there was Magic. Another Tonkinese who ruled both our hearts and his world with his magnificence. And Esmeralda Paranoia, a sweet Siamese who adored her brother/house-mate in spite of the fact that the feeling wasn’t mutual.

 Cosmo came next and was briefly joined by Button, a feral outside calico who regularly pressed her nose against the outside door – wanting so to be in, but fearing to join. And then, for too brief a time, with Lyra Deara, my darling dark foundling girl who one day, suddenly became paralyzed.

Many years ago our housemates included Pandora, a Siamese who eventually succumbed to cancer and died in my arms as the vet administered the fatal shot. And Robin Goodfellow, a big red who liked to dance jigs upon the dining room table and eventually got out into the big world and disappeared. 

They have all been splendid additions to our life. Each in their way. And we have, and still grieve their absence.

Yet Cosmo is different. Not a “pet.” But one of the three of us.

He has always come running when called. Loved to play “fetch” when I threw a wadded up piece of paper, bringing it back and dropping it at my feet for another round. Reveled in games of Tag, sneaking around the furniture only to run out and swat me with a tag, running to hide, waiting for me to sneak up and swat him. If I get up from the bed in order to go to the bathroom, he comes along, waits, and accompanies me back to bed. He understands words so that we have to spell things like “T-r-e-a-t,” so he won’t run and stare at his dish unnecessarily. Or “B-a-d C-a-t,” which will make him rum and hide after hearing the embarrassing epithet.

These days he prefers to snuggle under my arm or against my side, and I know he grieves and worries whenever we’re gone. He often sighs. Deeply. And at an appropriate time.

And now he has had a stroke, according to the vet. One week ago we awoke to his cries and watched him stagger and flounder across the floor, flailing right then left. All that night we watched and fretted as he threw up repeatedly and cried and flailed some more.

Now his movement is improved but he is not always here, walking down the hall only to stop as if he is wondering where he is and why. He looks at us in the same manner as if he is wondering who we are. And why. He moves aimlessly from window cushion to the bed, from upstairs to down, from sleep to agitation.

We can’t ask him if he is in pain. In distress. In deep depression. I have always believed that we are our “pets” gods. That it is up to us to make that final (heart-rending) decision. And now I am conflicted.

The vet said that he might improve. Or not. Or suffer further strokes. Now we monitor on a minute by minute basis. “How’s Cosmo? Did he eat? Did he snuggle with you or go downstairs?”

“Do you think he’s any better today?”

“Did you hear him coughing?”

“Is he with you? “Where is he!” 

Now, we’re waiting and watching. 

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I DO BELIEVE

Do you remember when Tinkerbell was dying and Peter called out for everyone to clap and chant – “I DO believe in fairies” and it was our collective faith that allowed Tink to continue to exist? Yes, I clapped. And yes. I’ll admit it. I do believe.

Maybe not specifically in Uncle Walt’s pixy who supposedly sets off the fireworks over the Magic Castle in Disneyland each evening, or even in the original and enchanting creation by J. M. Barrie. They belong to someone else’s fantasy.

My belief began in the garden. Under the arching branches of my grandmother’s fuchsia where I sat, pulling out all but two of a blossom’s stamens to fashion faery ballerinas. They twirled and whirled and I believed. Not just in the dancers, but in the presence of magic. There were spirits in the garden.

There have always been spirits in my gardens. I can feel their presence as I work among the bee balm and goldenrod. As I weed about the thicket. Just out of sight, around the bend, down the path.

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Call it an electromagnetic force field. Call it the presence of mystery, angelic visitation, kinetic energy, pure craziness, or even religion. And before I’m judged to be on the fey side of loony, I would guess that it isn’t such a far-flung fantasy for many of us to have experienced at some time or other, in church, in nature, in a garden – a presence.

My personal touchstone and guide, Joseph Campbell, wrote in the introduction to his book, “The Flight of the Wild Gander,” about the process of “lifting the veil.” He said that “myths are a function of nature as well as of culture, and as necessary to the balanced maturation of the human psyche as is nourishment to the body.” And further, that “symbolic images of mythic thought …may be recognized in themselves as ‘natural’ phenomena, opening backward to mystery – like trees, like hills, or like mountain streams – antecedent to the ‘meanings’ that have been given them and the uses to which they have been put.”

So there!  I sense the connection. And so yes, I believe. After all, I’m the crazy lady who talks to stones and stumps and bunnies.

It’s no coincidence that the other books which sit upon my “favorites” shelf, along with Joseph Campbell, are my Mom’s “A Book of Angels” by Sophy Burnham, “the Blue Fairy Book” by Andrew Lang, “Riting Myth, Mythic Writing” by Dennis Patrick Slattery, and “Care of the Soul” and “The Re-Enchantment of Everyday Life,” both by Thomas Moore.

They all reaffirm my belief in the reality of enchantment and magic and beyond that, the dynamic benefit of allowing a child’s sense of wonder to survive and flourish and inform.

Thomas Moore said it best – “Enchantment is a condition of unending suspension of disbelief, the willingness to live in a bungalow of stories rather than a warehouse of facts. It places imagination before information, and wisdom before intelligence … Rather than subject nature to its purposes, it listens for the occult voices in nature and looks for the personalities that populate it.”

That’s my point. I started out hearing the voices and seeing the personalities under the fuchsia bush and beyond. And for whatever reason, I never turned off the enchantment.

I see you.   

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MY SUMMER VACATION

I’m tempted to write an essay entitled “What I did on my summer vacation” (remember those assignments) on the chance that I might then get an inkling of how it all sped by and now, in retrospect, is nearly over and gone in a fleeting whiz of memory.

In all that time, from the first of June until now, I sat down only nine times, gathered my thoughts and wrote this blog. Only nine. Looking back, I ranted about the loss of the bees, celebrated Midsummer, participated in a mega-family reunion, marveled at wrens moving into a cow skull, lamented humidity and mosquitoes, longed for more growing space, lauded my Grandma Marie and all similar influences, grieved for a dead woodpecker and then for a tree.

Those were just highlights here and there of my summer. If I could encapsulate the past four months, I would have to admit that I spent my “summer vacation” galloping ahead, full throttle, ever flying to the next task, event, or happening. Whew. I’m rev-ing right now just thinking about my silly, break-neck pace of late.

There was the Farmer’s Market, of course, and that became a weekly focus – vendor emailing, shopper newsletters, hauling equipment, writing press releases, ringing bells, marking spaces, posting flyers, setting up equipment, collecting fees, setting guidelines, taking down equipment, making lists, hauling equipment.  And then doing it all over again. Not to complain. With just one week to go, I am most likely to end the season by making a spectacle of myself, jumping up and down while shrieking – “We did it!” The Fergus Falls Farmer’s Market was a success and, along with my crazy, volunteer compatriots – Lynn, Emily and Dave – I am proud and just a little “high and mighty” given the hoops and nay-sayers, and investment of life and limb. Thank you Fergus Falls. WE did it.

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The market was a big part of the whirl and the blur of the summer, but didn’t begin to eclipse in passion and sheer physical exertion, the time spent helping to open Transformations, with my daughter, Noelle and her business partner Kristina. What a wonder. Their endeavor takes motherly pride to a new glorious height.

For those who ask and want to know – Noelle and Kristina started with a dream. They first thought of a consignment business. But after a year of accumulation from high-end estate sales, they had a warehouse full of kitschy, vintage, super-terrific, beautiful and cool furniture. After a sojourn to Quartzsite, Arizona, they had not only mineral and crystals lamps and such, but a contact with someone who imports driftwood carvings from Bali – 10 inches to 10 feet tall, all with the head of the Buddha subtly carved and worked within the structure. Next they started accumulating Asian statuary, gongs, bells, fountains, lighting fixtures. And finally, they added to the mix – jewelry, art glass, home décor and botanicals.

All this magic in a wondrous gallery space in a trendy neighborhood. In fact, my old childhood neighborhood and in the very spot that long ago housed our local automotive repair shop. And I helped.

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So yes. It’s been quite a summer. But not in the sense that I ever took time to sip a cool drink by the seaside, or waft to and fro in my hammock while catching up on the latest fad fiction, or took a leisurely stroll along the river. Mostly I raced from one task to the next, however satisfying or exciting, and now I’m paying the price. I’m stuck in “rev” and seriously need to relearn and re-program the mode of relaxation.

“What do I need to do next?” I cry. “Go to your room (meaning my meditation space),” my husband says. “OM,” I say. Not really meaning it, but trying.

The truth is I seem to have lost the knack and habit of relaxation. It’s possible that it all stems from a later day form of retirement, and it’s certain that I never have been busier.

“Oh I can do that.” “That would be fun.” “Sure. Why not. Count me in.”

Before I retired I never had time to be so busy. Now I can’t squish all the multiple activities scheduled each day into the small squares on my calendar. There is Garden Club and Master Gardeners and Unitarian Covenant Group, and 1 Vegetable/1 Community (kale!), and Farmer’s Market and Writer’s Group and Writing as a Spiritual Practice and … 

And yet, just yesterday I was looking out the back door, wondering if I should pick tomatoes and start the mulching and fill the birdfeeders next and in what order, when I became engrossed with the chipmunks flitting about the yard. Scurrying. Rolling black walnuts. Sniffing for fallen seeds. Hopping atop the rocks around the pond. Popping in and out of tunnels. A blur. And then a quivering statue, eyes popping, ears out, tail extended. Then off again.

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They looked as frenetic as I felt, doing chores, taking care of this and that, making the most of waning days and sunlight. Getting in as much living as possible before they settle into their snug burrows for a long winter rest.

And yes. That is all it is, this crazy pace and energy. In other words, I’ve become a Minnesotan and when the snows return and the drive is ice and the garden is put to bed, I’ll settle into my cozy chair for a long winter’s rest.

But not yet. 

 

    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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X MARKS THE SPOT

 

We have officially been marked. Branded. Condemned.

 

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And along with the shocking scarlet letter, we received an official communication from the city of Fergus Falls, MN which notified us that the Tree Inspector had made his proclamation and, yes indeed, had found Dutch Elm Disease and furthermore – “In accordance with the municipal code, Chapter 6.71, and the Rules and Regulations of the State Department of Natural Resources, you are hereby notified that said marked tree must be removed from your property and properly disposed of within 60 (sixty) days of notification.”

 

It turns out that the city has a contract with a particular company which would remove the offender at $32.00 per diameter inch. At a calculated diameter of 37 inches, that adds up to $1184, plus the additional city tax (5.92) and sales tax (It was not clear if we were “selling” the disease to the city?) for a grand total of $1271.32. Fortunately Jesse, a friend of a friend, is the owner of 1st Choice Tree Care and agreed to do the deed for a mere $961.88.

 

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I don’t know whether to be more upset about the inconvenient expense, or the loss of a noble tree.

 

 

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Last year as the local forester made his rounds, and more and more ominous red slashes appeared here and there about town, I quivered and fretted about the fate of my favorite, my totem tree, which I look down upon from my meditation aerie. 

 

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True, it is a Siberian Elm, and therefore more resistant (but not entirely immune) to Dutch Elm disease, a fungal disease carried by certain beetles who lay eggs inside the bark. But I worried just the same. And didn’t breathe easily until I was certain we had passed the test.

 

For some reason I didn’t consider the possible fate of THIS particular elm, which arose out of the thicket from the lower garden. It was closely surrounded by other trees and shrubs, part of the natural habitat, and slightly out of sight and mind.

 

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I’ve been more concerned about the Ash, which has become the favored stopover for the Emerald Ash Borers as they move with deadly force across the country. There are several ash trees here on Mt. Faith and it is the tree next in line to be decimated and/or marked in red. Whatever comes first.

 

In fact, our local newspaper reported just last month that the city planned to cut down all the ash trees that line our downtown blocks. Just in case. “The borer is coming.” He’s not here yet.  But he will be.

 

The elm fungus began in Europe in 1910, reached the United States in 1928 in a shipment of logs from The Netherlands, and tromped into Minnesota sometime in 1970. It is not determined when the borer will arrive, but we know he’s on his way.

 

And all of this disease and slaughter could possibly have been kept in check by one simple solution. Diversification. Which means that instead of planting umpteen elms or ash trees, or for that matter coastal oaks (see Sudden Oak Death Syndrome in California and Oregon), all bunched together, we should have been offering up variety in our parks and along city boulevards. That way the fungi and the borers would not have been so likely to swoop in and gorge. They wouldn’t be calling their cousins and aunts to come to the feast on Main Street. They would be picking up take-out here and there, as they found it, and moving on.

 

And if tree and plant diversification is important for the horticultural health of communities, it occured to me that a cultural mix of humanity might have the same effect. Growing and living together. If I replace the new hole in the thicket, I’m thinking about a willow.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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